Sit Spot Noticings
It’s been a very frigid, frozen, cold, windy lately and no magical snowy landscapes to soften the blow. The conditions are harsh. I barely got outside - which is rare for me - the cold was biting. Everything is frozen. I’m feeling the tension and agitation of my own inner landscape at the same time, feeling very very tender and heavy this week - my body barely wanted to move - frozen in place and uncomfortable like the lands outside. I was letting myself be there - the frozen landscape was a comforting mirror for what I was experiencing in my body. When I did get outside I noticed more than usual the tiny buds growing on branches - even in this cold!!! Somethings going to grow eventually, life persists even in slowing, in frozen structures - it’s inspiring me to explore slow gentle movement in my body. What life, however small and subtle at this time are my agitations pointing me towards?
Just before it got bitterly cold I was able to make it to my sit spot to take the images in this module. The trees are mostly bare, and the earth is still covered in the corpses of the spring summer foliage. I was called to lay down in a pile of leaves one day and look straight up at the bare canopy. It reminded me of my question from last month’s noticing: “does it hurt, is it sad when you let go of your leaves?” “Not in that way,” I heard the whole forest say, “because we trust our cycle.” I was blown away. Of course, the intelligence of our earth has a deep embodied faith in the cycle of life and death, it knows a different kind of growth is coming. I could see the tiny beginnings of this coming spring’s growth in the buds that got produced during this past summer season. They reveal themselves once the leaves release themselves back to the earth. I pray to have more and more embodied faith like our earth. How would the function of our boundaries shift then?
