Dance with Darkness

What if our darkness was the gateway to our liberation?

Meditations & innovative interactive exercises inspired by the medicine of Fall & Winter that have helped countless Brownswell clients transform darkness into breath, possibility & renewal.

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Everytime I am up against what seems like an impossible situation, I turn to Kirin’s guidance and find a door of possibility - everytime!

- Nadia Raza

  • “The exercises and meditations in this course are resources for life. You will not regret the investment.”

    Natasha Azizi

  • “My nervous system immediately calms down when I listen to Kirin’s exercises & meditations.”

    Tameem Rahal

  • Kirin’s offerings are so generous, sincere, heartfelt yet fierce and revolutionary. They cut to the core of what we as a collective and as individuals are struggling with, she models and guides us into what we can become while honoring where we are in the process. 

    Jazmin Bias

  • “Kirin is like Mother Nature.”

    Madhu

  • Kirin’s exercises, meditations, and programs are an experience. She takes you into another world where you can feel safe to do things that can often feel really scary. I listen to her audio’s many times over because they are so rich, offering something new every time and exactly the words I need to hear.

    Sasha Bartoo-Smith

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Dear sensitive, mystical, empath


I know you’re tired.

Sometimes you’re fine. Sometimes you are seriously wondering what the point of all of this is, or how to stay connected to yourself and what’s happening in our world while living through so much.

You know how to care for yourself. You may have done therapy, somatic work, spiritual practice, nervous system work, or years of healing. And still, there are times when it doesn’t offer enough ground. Eventually you get pulled back into the undertow of grief, rage, overwhelm, pain, uncertainty, or simply feeling too much.

Dance with Darkness was created for those times.

Our darkness is not something to regulate, fix, or move through. It is a gateway.

The key lies in the wisdom of our bodies, the earth, our guides, and the darker seasons themselves.

We are the earth.

Which means, like the earth, it’s normal to move through seasons and moments of contraction, rest, grief, decomposition, uncertainty, and change.

Dominant healing models often teach us to understand these experiences through the individual body alone. Dance with Darkness widens the frame. Instead of asking How do I regulate this? we begin asking what happens when we understand ourselves as ecosystems, in relationship with the earth, our bodies, ancestors, guides, spirit, and the larger world around us.

Using Fall and Winter as our primary teachers, Dance with Darkness offers a gentle, self-paced process for turning toward what is difficult without making it a problem to solve.

You will explore how energy moves through you, how to be in relationship with harder emotions, and how to draw support from a much wider field than your individual nervous system.

The earth does not treat darkness as failure.

Neither do we.

Dance with Darkness is a place to remember that you are part of something much larger, and that even your darker seasons belong.

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Course Content

  • Crisis Care: Triage for when it’s hard to pull yourself up

    Meditations and exercises for the days it’s hard to get out of bed, when hopelessness comes knocking, when you’re needing support filling back up. Re-framing heaviness into a support system.

  • Regeneration: Filling up with the stillness & sensuality of Winter

    Using the energy of Winter sensuality to soften, compost and release. Learning how to be still to “digest” build up of energy.

  • Establishing A Strong Web of Support: Gratitude Demystified & Amplified

    Learn the energetics of gratitude and how to grow our well of internal abundance, even in scarce times. Feeling like you belong in your body, and to this unique moment in time.

  • Welcoming all the parts of ourselves home: Facing our own darkness

    Simple movement and meditative exercises to re-pattern the nervous system towards inclusion with ourselves. Fun exercises to welcome “dark play” to make space for grief, anger and frustration.

  • Finding Center in the Storm: Connecting our Fear and Curiosity Body

    De-activating fear with curiosity and a model for moving towards and transforming difficult moments, feelings or sensations with playfulness.

What you will receive:

  • A special guest module on energetic boundaries from Indigenous teacher, writer, healer and medicine-maker Shayne Case

  • Pre-recorded potent healing meditations that can be used year-round in dark moments

  • Journal prompts, earth-based exercises, and movement practice to solidify and integrate the meditations

  • Life-time access to your version of the course to re-visit anytime you are in a moment of hardship and to build your internal resources each Fall/Winter season.

At least 2% of all sales will go directly to supporting the following pioneering impact projects

  • The Tokeyaminiwin Project which preserves and shares Indigenous plant medicine throughout Lakota territory. 

  • The opening of HeyDoc BIPOC holistic healthcare clinic in Portland, Oregon.

  • Taking Ownership which revives Black-owned homes and empowers Black homeowners to generate wealth while simultaneously detering the gentrification process. 

  • A scholarship fund for QTBIPOC folks to access Brownswell offerings and 1:1 sessions.

What others and I have received from doing this work:

  • Developing the capacity to feel your body and energy in order to channel it more effectively

  • Learning to embrace and find beauty in our heavy emotions, and moments of burn-out, without trivializing what we are experiencing

  • Transmuting, with embrace, our heavy emotions, and others heaviness and burn-out into wisdom, energy and creativity

  • More capacity to navigate and feel beauty and resource in uncertain times

  • Developing flexible robust support systems that change and expand as you evolve so you are supported even as circumstances shift and challenges arise

  • Developing the capacity to soften, rest and relax the nervous system so our energy can fill up

  • Moving out of care-taking archetypes and activating our role as teachers and coherent leaders

  • Developing compassion and boundaries that emerge organically

  • Accessing parts of our purpose, creativity and vitality that have been “turned off”

  • Wanting to stay in your work, organizations retaining staff, even during difficult times

  • Feeling connection, belonging and purpose

“Kirin has so much levity, joy and spark in her spirit. And the way she fearlessly embraces her dark nights carves her heart so deep, she is able to hold all of life in a way that most can’t or don’t. This allows me to approach my darkness with trust under Kirin’s guidance, because I know she’s successfully been to the depths and back again many times over.”

- Jeevan Singh

Is this program right for me?

If you’re here, it’s likely for you. You are someone who cares and feels others and our world with sensitivity, you want to make an impact however small or big. You are a parent, care-giver, community member, front-line worker, healer, teacher, business owner, CEO, executive director, manager, supervisor, a team of leaders.

You hold marginalized identities and feel the world in a way others don’t, have a unique perspective, strength, and gifts that you want to offer the world in a way that feeds you as much as you feed others. This journey was made especially for you.

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Frequently Asked Questions

I find online platforms difficult to connect with, especially when it comes to my healing. What makes this program different?

Countless Brownswell clients have shared testimonials that the course “successfully keeps the intimate, the earth and the sacred alive in a digital space.” Of course digital platforms can never replace in-person programming, however this is the program I wish I could have given all Brownswell clients prior to working with me so they could make the most out of our in-person, in-depth work. It’s also the guide I hoped to give to all my clients to keep referencing throughout their evolution.

How is the course structured?

The course consists of five modules. Each module has an intro, a meditation, exercise and accompanying PDF with integration questions. Many people take several months to work with the material. Once you have gone through it once, you can return to any portion when you are needing support and do the course again when Winter arrives the following year or anytime you are in a dark moment in life.

I am not in a dark time, is this course still good for me?

Absolutely. This course isn’t only for moments of crisis. It’s also for building a deeper relationship with the darker, quieter, more complex parts of your ecosystem, so when they do arise, they don’t feel like something you have to immediately fix or regulate. It will also deepen your connection to the earth, your body, your guides, and your own cyclical nature.

I’m not very good at keeping myself accountable. Is this a good course for me?

Healing is much more potent in community, I highly recommend moving through the program with a group of people. There are reflection questions in each module to help you all process the experience together and support one another. Also, remember that the course (and your own healing) is not meant to be conquered. The course is meant to be a resource for life to be done at your own pace, and to keep returning to. Trust your pacing.

It’s not Winter where I live right now, why would I buy this course?

The course isn’t only meant to help us get through the Winter season, it’s a guide for our metaphorical “Winter’s” and dark times, which can occur at any time of year. Much like the current polycrisis we are in, which has traversed all four seasons and continues to. The course content can be used at anytime of year. We cannot be resilient without developing the ability to traverse difficult times.

I’m a highly sensitive, spiritually gifted leader/practitioner. Why is this program especially for leaders like me?

Highly sensitive leaders have unique and sensitive constitutions that are prone to burn-out when we don’t live and work in a way that honours our natural cycles and emotions. Our personal cycles are very connected to the earth’s seasons. This course intimately connects you to the seasons and offers tools that build the capacity to understand and be aligned with our own rhythms and emotions.

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This course is an introduction to the basic foundational tools that can help us find our bearings in challenging times and in the Winter season. It is intended to be used as a supplement to therapy, community care, and continued support to fully digest complex experiences and emotions. If you are in need of extra support at this time, visit the list of trusted practitioners to get help with your healing process.